Today was my first appointment with my OB-Gyn.  It went pretty well, got my blood taken, got a pap, and also got to hear my babys heartbeat for the first time!  I didnt even know they were going to do that today...it was so...unreal and yet it made my pregnancy so much MORE real.  If that makes sense.  My mom & my cousin Erica (whos like my sister) went with me since Derrick (my fiance) couldnt go.  When I heard that little heartbeat it made my heartbeat fuckin fast as hell, both my cousin Erica & I's eyes started watering when we heard it!  It was probably the most amazing thing to ever happen to me in my life so far.  The only thing that made me sad about it was that Derrick wasnt there to experience it with me.  I talked to him on the phone afterwards and he seemed pretty disappointed that he wasnt there either.  But he'll be out before the next time I go in on June 1st & he'll get to hear it then, I cant wait for him to be out and with me again!

The doctors office gave me a whole bag & a notebook full of baby & pregnancy crap to read so thats pretty helpful I guess.  They gave me some interesting magazines and what not.  All of this is really overwhelming for me, I definately was not ready for all this to happen to me right now but at the same time, I know I'll end up being okay and doing right & I'm still really excited for a new part of my life to start!  They talked to me about classes and stuff too, they told me Derrick should go to this "daddy class" and when I told him about it he told me he was already taking a class in the jail, that makes me so proud of him, he doesnt even know, him taking the iniciative to do that means so much to me.  It just reminds me of why I love him so much!   He said he'll still take the other class though, and of course the class with me! 

I'm ready...